Wallowing in Self-Pity

Life has a way of knocking you on your behind. That has happened to me in the last year and I’m afraid that I have sat in the dirt and wallowed in self-pity. I have thrown myself a grand “poor me” party. Allie has been reading Job, and we’ve had many discussions lately on this book of the Bible. This is my least favorite book and I can’t understand how God could point Job out to Satan and give him license to attack this man in so many ways. Last week at church, the Pastor spoke about Job (doesn’t it always work out like that). He said that we see life through our own flawed vision and we do not see the heavenly dimension of life. God was proving to the entire spiritual realm the faith of Job.

So often I look at my life much like the view of geocentrism (sun revolves around the earth). Many times I act as if I believe that my life should be dictated by me, that God exists for me. Ah yes, I’m sorry to say that humanistic attitudes have had a hold in my life. Last night, Rod and I listened to The Supremacy of Christ by Voddie Baucham, and I would really, really encourage you to listen.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

I know these videos are long, but I promise they are worth your time.

With the humanist view I had established in my life, I began to see myself as worthless. I felt worthless. I began to entertain thoughts on how I could please myself-to make myself happy. I took this blog off of the live feed, because I felt like I had nothing worthwhile to say. Yes, can’t you just imagine me sitting in a dusty heap, whining and complaining? I praise God for his goodness and that He has not left me in a state of pity, but has lifted me up and has shown me my worth-not because I am good, but because He is! I am amazed that the Creator of everything would choose to make me, love me, bless me, and sacrifice His life for me. Oh Lord, who am I that you would love me? Thank you, Jesus!

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